When everything feels so messy, loud or even a feeling that I can't explain, no matter how much I wanted to open up to someone or to call someone instead I'll push people away-asolating myself, pretending that everything is okay but the voices inside my head were loud. loud enough for me to wish everything would end, to stop the whatever the pain I am feeling. I wasn't strong as people view me. I wasn't the strong independent person they knew. I wasn't the full of life person they always see-its a mere facade, for me to hide, for no one to notice I am in great pain and sorrow because the present me thinks that it will burden the people around me. The present me thinks that the negative energy will transfer to the people around me, that they have problems too to deal with and having another problem-which is me, will only make them suffer more. So, in the end, I will just sit in my room-lights off and a full volume music, trying to hide the silent cries. all alone.