i feel so shit, like a burden i feel like i make everyone's life heavier and annoying i feel like everyone's day is better without me i feel worthless, like a cockroach such an ugly and disgusting creature i stay, even tho you don't want me to, even tho you try to get rid of me, 'cause i always come back i just wanna disappear, not burden or annoy or make anyone's life shitty, just be by myself in the middle of nowhere, maybe dying because i didn't notice a cliff and finally being of use to nature, the flowers, insects and the future of the world, since i won't come back to humanity after death maybe i just want to die i no longer wish not to feel, or not to care, i just wish to "not be" i also wish to not get better 'cause, sincerely, i just wanna be left alone in my missery and die inside in the process i need some sleep (and not cry in the process of that too) ~🌻