I don't know if it makes me happy or if I just wanted to pass the time, but after I got older I realized that I was empty inside. I try to find something to fill me. I was always escaping from reality and from myself, but after a while of spending time with myself I wanted to live in a quiet area away from the noise and the outside world, to wake up in the morning quietly and not hear loud noises that make me shiver. I really wanted that, but everything I want runs away from me, my dreams and the ones I love. Isnโt that cruel?
Sometimes I wonder what will happen if I delete all my accounts and buy another mobile? I don't think anyone will think of me and say "what happened to her?" I think I've become invisible, and no one will notice my disappearance. It doesn't matter, but inside I want someone to ask about me in the middle of the crowd. I thought I would definitely do that.