There is no first, or last in forever - It is Center, there, all the time.
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If you are going to love me,, here are some things that you should know. I cry often,, Whether its during a movie, sad song, or a reguler Sunday morning. I will cry when i speak of things that have hurt me, even if they no longer hurt anymore. Im afraid of being left and im afraid of not being good enough. I will tell you the ways in which i hate myself, and not believe a single word you say when you disagree with every reason. You can tell me you love me countless time but i will still be afraid of you leaving me. But don't blame yourself. I have to expect the worst cus i have always gotten the worst. When i fall in love with you,, i will love each crack in your skin and every freckle of light in your eyes. I will fall in love with the way you look while you are sleeping and the way your mouth curves when you say my name. I can be difficult to love,, but for me loving you will always be so easy. All i ask is you don't give up on me,, and the return i will never give up on you.
Im a girl who is always there for others. Know that my heart is rare. Know that i hold within me the ability to calm storms in people,, a beautiful gift that's relieved sore eyes and hurts minds. Know that i give people hope,, that i inspire them by acknowlegedging the pieces of them that most people ignore. That i make people feel wanted. That i make people feel they have purpose. Im an amazing human being. I don't let anyone make feel otherwise.
Everything that im feeling and experiencing. Everything i think never heal from is so human. And that's totally okay.
There is a strength in me that no one can take away from me. Not even that person who broke me in the most profound ways. It may take me some time to rediscover myself.
I know i change a lot for them. But my true self is still there. I have been there all a long.
I believe in my ability to continue living. Live without them by my side. I believe im worthy of being heal and worthy of moving forward with fresh eyes, more maturity and self love. I believe that i have have a strong heart๐ค
โโWhen everything around you is gloom and doom,, try to focus and all the beautiful things around you and smile! Not only will you feel better but those around you will too. And remember...don't worry,, about a thing,, cause everything little thing is gonna be alright' ๐ค
โโWhen you decide to forgive someone, it's not a matter of whether the person was wrong, and you are right. Is that person really evil or abusive! You decide to forgive someone cause you deserve peace withinโฃ