Dear self,
hello.. how are you? i'm sorry, i rarely pay attention to you or maybe don't pay attention to you at all, i'm sorry i forced you to be defensive and act as if you were fine even though i know that i'm not fine with you.
Please forgive me, because the circumstances, obligations and responsibilities we bear make us try to survive all the problems we face, i'm sorry i didn't realize that we were tired and perhaps destroyed because we were faced with problems that we couldn't easily solve and we can just take it for granted.
I also want to say thank you very much, thank you for trying to survive until now, surviving all the problems and trying to stay strong and sane so that the people around us don't worry and we can be a support for those who are falling, thank you for trying to be a figure role model for your younger siblings, i promise and i will try that when there is a time when we will be happy, there is a time when we can accept all the situations we face and the circumstances that we inevitably accept, i want you and i to be happy and i can pay attention you are kinder and less harsh on us.
I love you, you are the only and most important thing in my life, sorry if i have recently prioritized other people before us, i'm sorry, behind it all my love for you is very, very big, and i hope you understand and understand. Yes, i love you more than anything ♡
⌒◌ your first love, Vycila !ᡴꪫ