It’s Not an AuDHD Thing

i hope y'all missed my dnd posting

> be me
> create a character that kind of personifies my bpd
> struggle to play him because he lacks grounded identity
> what?

im back to hating my executive disfunction moments

i can literally feel the energy going through my body, but i just dont feel like getting up, this is insane

no because why can't i move or make any decisions? it's not depression, because i feel joy and im ok around people and i am able to do things... but also i cant do things? i freeze in one place daydreaming and lost in time, i cannot start big tasks and constantly require something as noise to keep me away from my thoughts.
i experience zoomies and hyperactivity, but i also rely on sugar too much these days to stimulate my brain.
anxiety is a white noise at this point, and the rest is just unexplainable.

but at least i dont experience extreme mood swings anymore, splitting doesn't happen, depression is canceled ??

now that my depression is in remission, i realise that i struggle with adhd way more than i used to. or at least more than i could admit.
no one prepared me for skill regression that happens when adhd becomes such a hassle in everyday life. and that sucks because i feel like i was dealt a horrible hand full of executive disfunction and boredom.